the email that started it all

so if you dont know anything about me this email might be a bit confusing, but basically my husband and i had decided to join the church that we had been going to for a little while.  its a Baptist church and when you want to join you have to be baptized.  i wasnt a Christian at this point, but i wanted to join  for my husband, robert, and my kids.  i sent this to Pastor David the two days after we had taken the "just add water" baptism class with him (the friday before i was supposed to be baptized)....




David-

Hey.  I called and left you a message at church yesterday.  I just found out that you are on vacation until Monday though.  I really wanted to talk to you because I am having some major reservations about being baptized on Sunday. 

You see, I really wanted to do it for my husband and family, but I know that that would be for the wrong reason.  I just don't know if I am ready.  I have been so torn up about this since our class on Wednesday.  As I said then I feel drawn to be at the church... to be involved... to hear the message... all of it.  But to be honest, I am not saved.  I am just so emotionally distraught over this.  It sounds cliche, but while in my heart I feel this pulling, my head tells me no.  I don't know. 

I was just hoping that maybe if I could talk to you, you could help me work through this.  I guess I should have said something on Wednesday, but I was embarrassed. I don't feel comfortable talking to many people about this, but for some reason I feel compelled to talk to you. I have this feeling that I just need a little push... an assurance that what I feel is a normal part of this process.  Robert says that he thinks it is a good thing that I feel this way.  That it means that I want to come to Christ on my own terms, not someone elses.  I don't know.  I am just really confused. 

I know that you are on vacation, but I would really appreciate it if you would give me a call.  I understand if you can't.  You might not even be checking your email.    If not, maybe we could talk on Sunday morning. 

Thanks for your time-

Amanda



needless to say, i was saved that night.  david walked me through the whole thing.  it was so amazing, and powerful, and beautiful.... and i cried like a baby the whole time.  :)