the next week

this was written the thursday after i was saved.  david had given the wednesday night sermon the night before, so thats what the second  paragraph is about.  the rest are some questions that i was having at that point.... 



 david-

its is so awesome to me how so many of your words ring true.  you were so right when you said that Gods timing is perfect. even down to the tiny fact that daylight savings was last weekend which means i am sitting here wide awake at 5:30 a.m. having a cup of coffee and a quiet time before the kids get up.  its really neat to me to see the little things like that and realize that its all part of Gods plan.  (laughing at the fact that the second i wrote that tripp walked out into the living room, which is why i didnt get this off till this evening)

i wanted to let you know that i thought your sermon last night was really really great.  it was almost as if it was custom written just for me.  just so perfect, especially after we talked yesterday morning about how i feel like such a baby in my walk.  God made you "speak the truth"  directly to me last because i really felt everything you had to say.  i thought it was cool how you used the Psalm as a starting point and had other verses that tied into it.  now i feel like i kind of have a starting point for my own bible study.  which is great because, like i said yesterday, i really didnt know where to even begin. 

i really was writing because i have a few questions.  i know you said i could come visit with you any time, but i usually do better with questions over email because it gives me a chance to really organize my thoughts.  i need that organization because ive got a lot bouncing around in my head lately.  :)

 anyway, i was just wondering if it is normal that i am so emotional right now?  the best way i can describe it is that i feel really raw.  like every emotion i am feeling is exposed and magnified 100 fold.  any little thing will make me cry.  sometimes they are happy tears, sometime they are sad tears, but most often they are just tears that are uncontrollable. weeping really.  they just come, and there is no stopping them when they are ready to pour.  i just feel like everything is so big and bright.  i dont know. robert thinks its just because there is so much changing inside of me.  just curious to know what you have to say about it and how long it will last. its exhausting. 

also, i feel like i am so ready to dive into everything head first.  i feel like i want to learn everything.  i know that will never be possible, but i just get overwhelmed when i even try to start.  then i start crying.  :)  i guess i was wondering if you have any recomendations for a book or something that will help me get started.  maybe a bible study or intro to faith 101.  :)  the good news about that is that every time i start to feel overwhelmed, i literally feel Gods hand on my chest holding me back.  i know He is saying slow down amanda.  its pretty cool actually. 

other than that ive been doing really well.  so many changes.  i get overwhelmed (been throwing that word around a lot lately) when i feel Gods presence around me.  its just amazing because its a bigger feeling than i have ever experienced before and i really feel like its only the tip of the iceberg.  last night in church i really felt it, especially when you were talking about angels.  i felt them wrap their arms around me to comfort me.  almost like a welcome home. 

sorry for writing so much... just have so much on my mind.  maybe i should start a journal.  then i can just hit you with the highlights.  :)  hope you are having a great day. 
thanks for everything-

a 


pretty basic stuff.   its interesting though because i think a lot of people might have these questions after they are saved and they dont know who (or how) to ask.... is this normal?.... what does this mean?.... where do i even start?  i think its so important to have a person to talk to.... a pastor, a mentor, an elder... who not only knows what its like to be a tiny infant Christian thats crying out for the word... craving the word...but is also someone that you feel comfortable discussing your faith with. 

to have a person that can guide you is so imperative to growing your faith, and in turn, strengthening your relationship with Christ.  if you are a baby Christian like me, i strongly encourage you to get in touch with a pastor at your church who can give you some scripture to look at and possibly the name of a person that is willing to be a mentor.